Autumn 10.02.24

Its autumn now

Desperate to dial it back

Too far to take it all back

Can I give myself permission 

To let this get a little dark

Its autumn now

Cool air beckons me to chill

But I can’t avoid the thrill

Desire pulls me along this rush

Are my feelings ever strong enough

Can’t I just let go?

Its autumn now

Desperate for the slow days

Hopeless in this mad haze

Sometimes I feel like I’ll never get out

Frightened of this inevitable rebound

This might get a little bit dark

Oh how I want to be selfish

Oh how I want to be friends with

The person whos holding the longest grudge

Do you think I’ll budge?

Much easier to feel forlorn and forgotten

I wish it wasn’t so often

Won’t you please come around some more?

I want to live like the witches

Forest folklore cottages

Not a sound to break the silence in the woods

Do you think we could?

Walking barefoot with open hearts

Deep breaths of the cleanest air

Turn around, wind in my hair

And you’re still here…

Its autumn now 

Can I finally take a break

How much weight can my soul take

Wrap me in the warmest promises

Tip toe your way around emptiness

I’ll tell you why I favor the darkness

But you have to swear you’ll hold my hand

Its autumn now

Another misty morning

And I kind of like the wetness on my face

And like a mythical thing

The gloom fades without a trace

But the saboteur follows me around

Lingering at the corner of my eye