Say It

Lines drawn in the sand

I know where I stand

And I've stepped as far as I dare

Alone exposed and bare

I felt like a dirty cheat

You wanted me to grovel at your feet

And I said no

No deal

I won't let you drown me in disgrace

For real

I know how much I’ve given to this place

Such zeal

Bet you wouldn’t say this to my face

You probably thought I’d back down

But you’re new to town

And I have a history

Flavored in misery

I’m no stranger to the ostracized

Feeling I get inside

You might shut me out

But I’ll be damned if I let you box me in

You thought you had me beat

You wanted me to grovel at your feet

And I said no

No deal

I won't let you drown me in disgrace

For real

My blood sweat and tears paint the walls of this place

Such zeal

But I bet you won’t say shit to my face

Authority figure

Hairpin trigger

The irony isn’t lost on me

Spend your days teaching people how to be

Calm in the face of pressure

We’re all human

It's true but

There's an etiquette to this

Even yogis get pissed

But I felt like a dirty cheat

You wanted me to grovel at your feet

And I said no

No deal

I won't let you drown me in disgrace

For real

I know how much I’ve given to this place

Such zeal

For a woman who won't say shit to my face

Weeks turn to months

Now I say “I knew you once”

Before power consumed you

Before envy filled you

Now a cliche remember when

Seems the jokes on me 

I can’t escape your memory

I hear your words in my voice

I never had a choice 

Never suspected such a sudden severed thread

From a trusted friend

Now what do I do with all you’ve taught me? 

Can’t believe I felt like such a dirty cheat

Can’t believe I almost groveled at your feet

But I said no

No deal

Haven’t I been an equal in this place?

For real

I had no idea you had such toxic traits

Such zeal

But I’m still waiting for you to say it to my face…