Sore Spot

I’m trying not to be preoccupied

Cant help but feel this space you left behind

Silent sunrises

Lonely mornings

I had ignored the warnings

Loving too hard too quick

I learn the same lessons over and over

You became my safe space

Will anyone ever take your place?

Or will I always feel this longing?

I’ll never be the same

What a shame

Can’t find a bridge to cross the distance you create

Now I can’t look at you without heartache

So I avoid it

Its so annoying when

You appear in my dreams at night

My mornings full of reflections

My objections

Your rejections

I’d go down without a fight 

If you’d just say you remember

Say you never meant it

When you started pushing me away

Say you never felt it 

And I’ll l say theres no way

Thick as theives

Interwoven dreams

I was your prodigy

And you thought I was yours to make

No apology 

Even when I lowered my sword

I realize my words were forward

I saw your face that day

You raised your voice to me

And the whole thing changed

I dont even know you anymore

Did you ever really want me?

Were you just stuck with me?

Was that sincerity?

or did you have me fooled all those years?

You spent teaching me to face my fears

While you stayed so resistant to change…